2010

Happy New Year! I am completely blown away over how fast 2009 flew by, it was really all a blur to me. I wish I could have pressed the pause button so I could just absorb life this past year. Going into 2009 I was freaking out about loosing my job and how would we survive if the worst did happen. I still have my job and it’s going better than I could have ever expected. I passed my ten years of working for the man this past July and looking forward to the next ten years I am really excited where things are going. I thank the powers that be everyday, I am very lucky to have a job.

In April I became pregnant, which was something I never thought could ever happen for us. For those who don’t know, we have not been preventing pregnancy for the past twelve years and for all that time nothing was happening. Six weeks into the pregnancy we found out that it was not a viable pregnancy. Even though that was a terrible blow, I was happy that I was even able to get pregnant. That was huge for us.

The blistering Arizona summer arrived and it felt even hotter than the years before. I had lost thirty pounds and life was good. Everything came to a grinding halt in late August, Courtney lost his job. We had to come clean to the family about where we were financially and while that was embarrassing, we discovered that our family really stands by us. Thankfully, within a week Courtney was able to find a job. He’s doing something completely different and I really believe that he was meant to be at this job. During all this mess we had to say goodbye to our beloved Airedale, Joey. I miss him everyday. Our newest member to the family, Molly, has really helped us get through loosing Joey. Molly has nuzzled her way in to our armpits and hearts.

I turned thirty-eight this year, I’m closer to forty than thirty now. I’ve said this before..when I look at my circle of friends who are all roughly in their mid to late thirties, I really do not see them as their age. We may all have adult responsibilities but I still see us as we were at nineteen. I went to my twenty year high school reunion (Go BGHS Bulldogs!) and had a great time. I think of reunions as like senior prom, even though you dread going, when it’s all over you’re glad that you went.

Early November brought us another surprise, I was pregnant again! This time we only told close friends for fear that we would jinx it. It killed me to not tell my sister and sister-in-laws. We planned on telling the family just before Christmas, when everyone was in town. As you can read in the previous post, again at six weeks the pregnancy was not viable. Again I am happy to even be able to get pregnant for a second time, and so soon! We’ve made an appointment to see a fertility doc in January, maybe they will be able to tell us what is going wrong at six weeks. I’m praying that the third time is the one that sticks.

Looking at the year ahead, I am mentally putting a plan in place to get things done around this house. 2010 will be all about change. Change is good and it is much needed around this house. I am leaving the rest up to the higher power who will protect and guide us through this new decade. I hope that everyone has a wonderful year full of memories!